Edward Gentry, everyone is different in why and when or how we woke up and left this cult. Many of us here did not have home computers or Internet when we was 18. That was all science fiction to us. Biggest technology break was the 8 track music machine for our cars. When computers and Internet became popular many of us was in the middle of raising children. Also I was very apprehensive in using them.
If you are young you was born into the information age I was not. So for someone like myself even if I had doubts I had very few options to research it. I woke up in my mid 50's and severing as a elder. What was i thinking? I was thinking of how could I keep my head above water with working and all the busy work the cult threw at you. Be happy at a young age you woke up. Use your time on this earth for the good. Take care and have a good life. Still Totally ADD